this few days i've been thinking of wat felicia(my bestest friend since p1) told me when she called me 3days ago, we were chatting happily when she suddenly say "serene, you are not the same person i once known do you know that??". dann i was stunned and shocked of wat she say, and she said, my way of talking and do whatever had changed alot.. is lik my whole pers0n ma jiam switch into another person lik dat, DID I?, ya i noe when i was in sec1 and 2 , im little guai guai girl and sec3 i turned into a bad girl, smoking and drinking but dann tyme pass i change.. ok ya still scold some vulgarities but dann i promise her i will try to change.. talk 2 her till 1am dann we put down da phone c0s she want to sleep le.. dann i go sit inside my room and tink back wat felicia told me and took out my album book and see the photos taken when i was small as in pri sch and the photo i have now.. is like 2 diff people, I tink i really changes alot.. but dann i dunno hw 2 change.. everytime quarrell with my mom, vulgarities will come out and any how scold anyone who provokes me, but dann sometimes is their fault it would become my fault.. sometimes i really do hated my family alot, dey side my sister, even though her fault they will blame me even i diin do anyting.. i realli couldn't resist them liaos le..
everyone hopes for a happy family, but dann sometimes im wondering if this word really exist in this world.. even it is, to me the meaning is lost liaos lerrhs.. when i was walking on the street, looking at the families talking and go out happily i really envy them, how could i have wat dey have.. and i even envy kelly, her mom and dad has been always being with her, have happy outings and always go out together, how i wish i can be like her, i dun care whether my family is rich or poor, having love in the family is more important..
CAN I EVER HAD THIS KIND OF LIFE.. NEVER!! I CAN NEVER..
because of i nid company, i find friends outside and mix with bad company and become wat i am now, i wan to change but i just cant..
NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO PROOF THAT I CAN!!
YOU DON HAVE FAITH IN ME DAT I CAN DO SO