Mar 12, 2007, Monday, March 12, 2007
Obession.
to what i hav known today, im stupid in learning, absorbing info and many other things? why m i like dis? if they are not happy about me they can just come forward to me and tell me right? why mux dey say it behind me? are they cowards or wat? if is not qihui tel me, i wouldn't hav noe.. i admit that i am slow in learning the tings dat i learn.. but dan 2 let me really absorb nids time.. how can dey say dat? if i say them lik dat dey shuang ma? bu shuang rite? cant dey tink of others feelings before?? brainless? even though im slow, im willing 2 learn and improve.. i ever tink of quitting guides, but if i quit e cca points i hav all will be gone, but can i tolerate till the end of 2007? would i be happier if i quitted guides? every night i pray 2 God that can he make me more clearer of wat im doing and not make my slowness increase? 4 christian dey say "Never be in doubt of God's powers". im not in doubt but dat y God didn't help me? i dun wan 2 stand lik dis forever? God help me!!
my only wish now is not to be so slow..
today qihui told me dat time i was really sad.. feel lik crying out, but dan i told myself not to. God is there, he knows my pain.. i trust him dat he will help me..
i dun wan 2 let them look down lik dis.. do dey tink dat hurting me dis way they can enjoy themselves really much? are they coward, stupid or brainless? God's eyes are looking.. i trust you God..
my only wish now is not to be so slow..
today qihui told me dat time i was really sad.. feel lik crying out, but dan i told myself not to. God is there, he knows my pain.. i trust him dat he will help me..
i dun wan 2 let them look down lik dis.. do dey tink dat hurting me dis way they can enjoy themselves really much? are they coward, stupid or brainless? God's eyes are looking.. i trust you God..
Obession.
