Mar 23, 2010, Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Obession.
Life isn't going the way I thought it will.
School ~
Friends ~
Family ~
My own feelings ~
Even though im smiling cheerfully everyday. But i'm forcing myself to be happy, by forgetting all those unhappy stuffs. After my laughs , my heart still aches alot.
School stuffs isn't going well. I really really feel like just giving up already. I'm tired! Really tired of everything.
Why? Why? Why? Thousands and million of Why's are circling around my head.
Why am I born?
Why am I useless?
Why cant I do anything right?
Why this why that!
Since 2007 , Friends are leaving me one by one. Either Dead Or Migrate. ):
Down with tears as im posting my blog. Nothing seems right anymore.
After weiqiang passed away, i felt so empty. He's always been there supporting me, finding ways to do silly stupid things in order to gain back my laughter. Always there will be a shoulder for me to lean on. Knowing there will be someone waiting for you.
But now, whats left is a empty room, empty cupboard, empty bed, empty chair, empty thoughts.
God is being so unfair ! He took away a brother i treasure the most, love the most and adore the most. Why Must Lung Tumor struck him? Why is he destinated to have such a short life? Why not take me instead?! T.T
Can someone tell me , why is the world so unfair?
Am I a friend who is to be used and throw? ):
Am I not important?
Now, My kor too ignored me. Dont know what i've done wrong. ): So what i have many friends? But do they understand my feeling? Do they know how heartaching and how lifeless i am? No they dont. No one understands me.
Two years later. Leaving this place full of saddness. Flying off to Canada to start a new life .
Even though i know you wont care either.
Might or Might Not come back.
Even if i do not come back, nothing will change.
How i wish, everything thats happening now is just a nightmare.
After waking up in cold sweat, everything will be alright.
But i know, it'll never happen.
School ~
Friends ~
Family ~
My own feelings ~
Even though im smiling cheerfully everyday. But i'm forcing myself to be happy, by forgetting all those unhappy stuffs. After my laughs , my heart still aches alot.
School stuffs isn't going well. I really really feel like just giving up already. I'm tired! Really tired of everything.
Why? Why? Why? Thousands and million of Why's are circling around my head.
Why am I born?
Why am I useless?
Why cant I do anything right?
Why this why that!
Since 2007 , Friends are leaving me one by one. Either Dead Or Migrate. ):
Down with tears as im posting my blog. Nothing seems right anymore.
After weiqiang passed away, i felt so empty. He's always been there supporting me, finding ways to do silly stupid things in order to gain back my laughter. Always there will be a shoulder for me to lean on. Knowing there will be someone waiting for you.
But now, whats left is a empty room, empty cupboard, empty bed, empty chair, empty thoughts.
God is being so unfair ! He took away a brother i treasure the most, love the most and adore the most. Why Must Lung Tumor struck him? Why is he destinated to have such a short life? Why not take me instead?! T.T
Can someone tell me , why is the world so unfair?
Am I a friend who is to be used and throw? ):
Am I not important?
Now, My kor too ignored me. Dont know what i've done wrong. ): So what i have many friends? But do they understand my feeling? Do they know how heartaching and how lifeless i am? No they dont. No one understands me.
Two years later. Leaving this place full of saddness. Flying off to Canada to start a new life .
Even though i know you wont care either.
Might or Might Not come back.
Even if i do not come back, nothing will change.
How i wish, everything thats happening now is just a nightmare.
After waking up in cold sweat, everything will be alright.
But i know, it'll never happen.
Obession.
